The prophet, yours truly, has done it again. I have gained upward mobility in my recovery from crystal meth addiction. And this is the last time. Holy Spirit has answered my prayers and I am now on the path to living the Health Code of the Church of Meth exactly as outlined on the Church of Meth website. Amen my brothers and sisters!! And thank you for your prayers!
When I left the psychiatric hospital a couple of weeks ago, as I exited the doors, I got a panic attack. But it was not torture. It was a panic attack of pleasure. The breath of fresh air. A whole world before me. And I was completely sober! Oh how beautiful sober life is.
Soon after, though, I smoked my first cigarette. And then the force of compulsion kicked in. I soon after smoked some pot. Oh how far down the hole I fell from grace!
But I am clean once again from all mind-altering substances. And I recognize now that even nicotine is an insidious beast — cunning, baffling, powerful. This monster will not rest until I am dead.
So I have quit smoking and vaping. I will not use dipping or chewing tobacco, nor will I use nicotine-infused medications. Not the gum. Not even the patch. The prophet hereby declares that it is acceptable for a Church of Meth member to use nicotine-replacement medications as long as it contains NO NICOTINE!! I have chosen Chantix to aid me in my recovery from nicotine addiction. I have used it before to great success and I highly recommend it.
It is easy to stop smoking, drinking, and using drugs when you give up your civil rights. Free and guaranteed physical sobriety is one of the perks to hospitalization. Again, hospitalization is required for the addict who is still jittery and befogged. One can only apply the program of complete abstinence from addictive substances and work the 12 steps of recovery with a clear mind and body. This is the only way to begin to clear the spirit.
But recovery from addiction while keeping your civil rights intact requires a little bit of medical help. I have taken half a milligram of Chantix in the morning for 3 days, then taking half a milligram in the morning and in the evening for 4 days, then taking an entire milligram in the morning and in the evening for 2 weeks. I am on my fourth week of Chantix — taking one milligram in the morning and in the evening. All as prescribed by my doctor.
I will see the doctor tomorrow to determine whether I need to continue the medication as the starter pack only contains a 4-week supply.
I have slowly switched from smoking to vaping. With the help of this Chantix, I am cutting back everyday. Tonight, after much precontemplation and even more tedious contemplation, I make the decision to quit using nicotine for good. I had my last puff of nicotine-infused vape juice at 9:10 p.m. with 59 seconds. Yes, I suffer from mild OCD and wanted to quit using nicotine at exactly 9:11 p.m. since 911 is the universal code for emergency. I will share with you some spiritual insight on emergencies and the unmanageability of life for an addict in a future post.
So as of tonight, Monday, August 19, 2019, at 9:11 p.m., I will begin a 40-day abstinence from eating (a water-only fast). The prophet, yours truly, is ready to begin living the Health Code of the Church of Meth. To my knowledge, I am the first person to do so! I want to thank you all for your prayers. Without your divine intervention, I could not have committed to doing this.
I am going to copy and paste the latest entry from my personal journal for all ya’lls enjoyment. Remember, my AA name is Heaven 7 and my sponsor is Mastermind for the sake of anonymity.
Amen and amen!
!!!! FROM THE PROPHET’S PERSONAL JOURNAL !!!!
On Monday, August 19, 2019 at 21:11:00 p.m. I quit smoking.
My NicA sobriety date is 8/19/19 at 9:11 p.m.
!! NICOTINE ANONYMOUS !!
As I type this, I have been pushed forward by Holy Spirit by being given an
entire minute of freedom from nicotine. Now I have two minutes of smobriety. I
am full of eagerness to work the programs of recovery. I am committed to
complete abstinence from all addictive substances. I now have three minutes of
abstinence from drugs, alcohol, and tobacco. Four minutes now. All thanks to
I had an excellent NA meeting today. Earlier, I had a resorative session with
my AA sponsor. And now I have 5 minutes of clean time.
Mastermind, my sponsor, taught me the actors’ scenario from the Big Book. We
are all performers in a stage performance. I am the one trying to play the role
of the playwright to my own demise. I am not Holy Spirit. I am self-centered.
Trying to live life by pushing myself forward will lead to smoking and even
worse — failure, disappointment, and complete and utter chaos.
Instead, I need to let Holy Spirit be the Director of this play called Life. If
I try to manipulate the Grand Situation I will step on people’s toes and they
will retaliate. Nothing in God’s creation happened by mistake. Holy Spirit set
the laws of physics and chemistry. It also determined how much leverage all
living things would have — their individual might. Thus, It undermined the
annals of all of history. Animal history. Human history. Prehistory.
Recorded history. The present. Even the future. While we all have free agency
to do with our might what we will, only Holy Spirit exercised almightiness by
setting the fundamental laws of how all things operate: It is the Almighty.
Source Parent from which Holy Spirit proceeds is the Mother and Father of Light.
We are Its spirit children. We all have a breath. But only the Breath of the
Almighty has all the power and esteem. And now thanks to God I have over 10
minutes of clean time. Going on 15 minutes to be exact.
As children of the Light, we have beeng given 5 senses or faculties of
processing the data that makes up existence. We can see, and oh how beautiful
the sight! We need light to see and Holy Spirit is that Light illuminating the
straight and narrow path. May we walk while there is still light!!
At the NA meeting we learned about obsession and compulsion. Obsession is the
strong desire to use. It is that yearning for the old days. It is that
familiar friend that gave us ease and comfort calling to us even though we know
it is truly an enemy.
There is the emotional stage of obsession which is hunger, anger, lonliness,
tiredness, and boredom. It is feelings of jealousy over others’ success or even
others’ demise (their drug use). We covet the goods of others or the wives of
others or even the drugs that other people are smoking. It is resentment
towards past slights. It is hating what keeps slighting us in the present. It
is fear that we will be slighted again in the future. Any feeling that lays the
groundwork for relapse is part of the emotional stage of obsession.
The mental stage of obsession equals intelligible thoughts of using. It is a
war in your mind. Should I use or should I not use? Maybe you have already
formed the thought to use so solidly that the war is already lost. You are
planning to use.
The physical stage of obsession is the beginning of compulsion. It is the
actual relapse. Active drug use. It is taking that first drug. And it strips
you of one layer of deciding power. The force of compulsion is like a snowball
rolling down a hill. It grows and grows. You keep using and using. And every
time you use you are stripped of one more layer of deciding power until you have
not the power to resist and are using against your will. Oh what a powerful
beast compulsion is!
In the hospital I learned that I will not go crazy without smoking. I went
through all the stages of withdrawal, and with each individual craving I went
through all the stages of wanting to smoke but not doing so. I gave up my
civil rights for free physical sobriety. I was denied the ability to fulfill
any urge to use. Holy Spirit guided me through this stage of life to learn that
once I’m ready to lean on It I won’t fall. Holy Spirit will hold on to me until
I let go and suffer myself to the bondage of addiction which I am completely
Instead, if I hold on to Holy Spirit, he will not hold me back. It is that
Higher Power which will push me forward with its Almightiness against that
insidious beast of addiction which is cunning, baffling, and powerful.
And now I have half an hour of sobriety. 36 minutes and counting to be exact.
I need to build the snowball of sobriety not by letting my snowball fall down
the hill but to start stepping up and climbing the hill. I need to work the
12 steps which are like the steps of a staircase that take you up to Source
Parent in Outer Space. Holy Spirit destroyed the tower of Babel not because It
wanted to stop mankind from seeing It, but because reaching Source Parent in
Outer Space is as simple as climbing the steps and letting the snowball grow by
I had a taste of upward mobility when I came out of the hospital. Sober life
was so beautiful. It was so amazing that I got a panic attack as soon as I
walked out of the hospital doors. To breathe that fresh air. To have a whole
world before me. I want to be able to go anywhere a free man may go and not be
held back by the shackles of addiction. I need to give it up to Higher Power
and allow It to push me forward.
I am powerless over nicotine, marijuana, and crystal meth and I am intrinically
unable to manage my life. Using addictive substances is a symptom of this
unmanageability. By applying the maintenance steps and maintaining complete
abstinence from drugs, alcohol, and tobacco I will do my part in this
co-production. That is that I am in the business of action. Holy Spirit is in
the business of results. He is the executive producer. Nothing in my life
happened by mistake.
Mastermind told me I need to allow Holy Spirit into every aspect of my life. It does
not have difficult terms for those who actively seek It. May I find It now!
All power and all esteem be to It and Source Parent It proceeds from!!
Three quarters of an hour free from the chains of misery. 48 minutes.
Amen and amen.